He is always advising and guiding us in the right directions, but I know that I don't always listen, and maybe its because Im not where I should be spiritually. I think I get caught up in wordily things too often and forget who I really am.
So who am I really?
I am a daughter of our living God. Today I just took a moment and realized WOW. That is a huge deal! I am washed clean with the blood of Christ and I am clothed in righteousness. My ONLY purpose in this world is to praise and worship my king.
So why do I not listen and choose sin?
Eeeek. Thats such a hard question isn't it? I am a heir to the all mighty and I choose to receive dirt more than the gold I am given through grace... My sinful human nature consumes my thoughts, it brings in greed, anger, bad thoughts, and actions I wish I could take back... Its moments like these when I am so grateful to be born again through His love and grace.
Through our miscarriage and the struggle of fertility I have been so broken in more ways then I ever knew possible. But through this season when all I could be was still, I learned a few things about my God.
Sometimes He whispers and some times He roars. And it is my choice to listen, my choice to choose the act of worship when temptation calls my name. My God will prevail and He will speak to me silently or with an awaking roar. I am called to obey, wether He says yes or no, and I am learning that I need to be disciplined in Him to hear His answers.
God breaks me down to build me up. I would never cherish the moments I do now, if I hadn't gone through the hard ones. The only way to grow is by moving forward, and sometimes that means falling down on my knees.
Im thankful that God speaks to me in the cadence of everyday life...
