God Speaks

He is always advising and guiding us in the right directions, but I know that I don't always listen, and maybe its because Im not where I should be spiritually. I think I get caught up in wordily things too often and forget who I really am.

So who am I really?
I am a daughter of our living God. Today I just took a moment and realized WOW. That is a huge deal!  I am washed clean with the blood of Christ and I am clothed in righteousness. My ONLY purpose in this world is to praise and worship my king.

So why do I not listen and choose sin?
Eeeek. Thats such a hard question isn't it? I am a heir to the all mighty and I choose to receive dirt more than the gold I am given through grace... My sinful human nature consumes my thoughts, it brings in greed, anger, bad thoughts, and actions I wish I could take back... Its moments like these when I am so grateful to be born again through His love and grace.

Through our miscarriage and the struggle of fertility I have been so broken in more ways then I ever knew possible. But through this season when all I could be was still, I learned a few things about my God.

Sometimes He whispers and some times He roars. And it is my choice to listen, my choice to choose the act of worship when temptation calls my name. My God will prevail and He will speak to me silently or with an awaking roar. I am called to obey, wether He says yes or no, and I am learning that I need to be disciplined in Him to hear His answers.

God breaks me down to build me up. I would never cherish the moments I do now, if I hadn't gone through the hard ones. The only way to grow is by moving forward, and sometimes that means falling down on my knees.

Im thankful that God speaks to me in the cadence of everyday life...

He gives and takes away

I don’t know why things like this happen to us, but I do know it has to be for the glory of God. No matter how painful it is right now, God is in control and is the God of all comfort.

We are so very heartbroken over the loss of our baby, but we know God will shine through. One thing we have to remember is that this child He blessed us with for a short period of time was not ours, but His. Kyle and I had the honor of being the vessels He was using to bring this baby into life. We will forever be thankful and blessed for that precious gift.

During this season of our miscarriage we are thankful to be able to cling on to the verses that shines God glory through ALL things. He will never leave us thirsty.

*A glimpse of verses that shine His glory through pain*

Matthew 5:4
 God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

Jeremiah 29:11

 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

Romans 4:20-21
 Abraham never wavered in believing God’s promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger, and in this he brought glory to God. He was fully convinced that God is able to do whatever he promises.

Isaiah 49:13
 Sing for joy, O heavens! Rejoice, O earth! Burst into song, O mountains! For the Lord has comforted his people and will have compassion on them in their suffering.

Psalm 23:4
 Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.

We're Pregnant!!!

One year & six months

This path of marriage has been c.r.a.z.y. in every way! Good, bad, amazing, silly, hot, lovely, ever changing, but most of all beautiful! 

I never expected marriage to be so molding and awaking the way ours has been. Both Kyle and I have changed so much in such a short amount of time! Everyday gets a little more sweeter! :)

I’ve come to realize that Marriage is an instrument of God. He’s getting us in tune for the song we’re playing. Shining us until we sparkle & are ready to be on display to show others the beauty and original intent of marriage.

God has also taught me that It will always be a climb to get to where we are going (even in the good times). Marriage goes perfectly with the expression “you reap what you sew.” Kyle and I are always fighting to sew the good and that takes discipline and some hard work. But through that what we reap will be full of joy. 

I feel so honored to be spending the rest of my life walking through this journey. I may never know all there is about marriage, but I do know that i’m gonna love each step I take :)

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Happy Valentines day! <3 
Six more months today and we will be celebrating 2 years!!